Comment by codingdave
Comment by codingdave 5 days ago
I would not recommend asking people on HN to diagnose you. It is not that people on here don't have good advice and experience - they do. But everyone only knows their own life. People with depression will tell you it is 100% depression, while people with anxiety will tell you it is 100% anxiety, and people with burnout will tell you it is 100% burnout. Other people will tell you to go outside, or to eat low carb, or to lift weights. Basically, you'll get a pile of anecdotal advice from people who are not living your life, and don't know all the possibilities of what could be wrong, including that there could be an underlying medical problem.
The more important factor is that you know something is wrong and you want to fix it. Your best bet is to talk to a doctor and/or therapist about it. Get a professional diagnosis of what is actually wrong (or a confirmation that nothing is wrong and this is normal), and then filter out anecdotal advice that isn't applicable to that diagnosis.
OP 100% listen to this! You are effectively asking a bunch of strangers on the internet to understand and find a solution for the inner workings of your brain based entirely upon a couple sentences about your life. Now as codingdave points out, a lot of us here have probably been through similar situations, but none of us have been through YOUR situation. Some of us could probably espouse some generalizations that might poke at some of your issues, but only someone of deep intimate knowledge of both you and your motivations will be able to help you fully understand why you're feeling this way. Definitely seek a professional to help you work through this because only you can find the real answer here.