Comment by xeromal

That might be part of the trouble. I have a similar drive to always be productive. I'm not sure how to describe it other than I get depressed when I have nothing to accomplish. Maybe making generative art in itself is good enough but if you need a goal, maybe turn it into some kind of charity exercise.

Maybe go back to your appalachian roots and chop some wood or whittle some sticks. I've found it therapeutic.