{"about":"96 is not reflecting my age, I'm in my early 30s

Career/partial life bio

2025 ----------

Feb

Oh yeah it's possible by next month I will finally have something on my record (went to jail for being too drunk in public). It'll be interesting if that hurts me or doesn't matter, at worst it would be a misdemeanor. This happened last year but still going to court for it.

Once again I smell like cheap stripper perfume.

I'll make it work, hang out with these people.

It doesn't matter how good you look. If you're weird and don't fit in it doesn't end well ha. But that's the problem, why do I care, why do I want anything.

Man I hate being poor, I have to accept a workplace I don't like because I have no choice

I shouldn't be sad life could be worse. I'm fortunate. But yeah I'm that guy that goes to a party and sits in the corner alone.

Damn think I was passed up for presentation. Other person knew more than me but still... Damn. It's alright long as I'm paid. Stay true baby, stop being poor. -- no the presentation wasn't true was something else.

Let it be known a girl asked me out today, working out and haircut paying dividends

I have started to reduce my social media interaction as it is just a waste of mental energy. I could do other things. I still participate in watching YouTube or whatever but yeah. I am here to learn stuff this site is nice, no images/videos and technical. I still live in fear since I'm poor/in debt. Doing well with workouts my max bench is low at 200lbs but I can do 10 reps.

I picked up this concept somewhere of being a producer rather than a consumer (eg. social media). Granted when I make things I still have the urge to share them (all my hardware projects are open source). I would rather experience the joy of making something than just watching someone else do it. What does suck is I work out 6/7 days now since as a software person I spend most of my time sitting on my ass. But damn I look good v-build, massive arms all natural too not even pre-workout.

What I am struggling with is after my 9-5 I'm usually mentally spent afterwards. I still freelance and it's tough to do that or work on my own projects. I donate plasma and drive UE for extra cash. I make a lot but I have so much debt too and taxed a shit ton for being single.

I'm poor because financially I'm a dumbass but also I give too much money away. I'm that person that has a hard time saying no to people.

It sucks my outlook at my current job is I'm gonna get fired, me and my manager/co-dev don't get along it's unfortunate. But whatever happens I'll survive I can keep doing gig/labor work.

Jan

My mind lately has just been about "I have to make money" I can't like watch movies or anything without feeling guilty, I should be working, it sucks, need to fix that. My manager did apologize to me saying I was just trying to improve processes at work.

Might be getting fired soon idk, me and my manager do not get along, first time in tech, I've had 6 positions now. I only care because I'm so poor and I need this six fig job to get out. I still haven't created my own value.

Aside from financial issues I struggle in social settings, fitting in and not feeling FOMO, two things I want to fix: financial independence and either finding someone or being content with myself. Body too I workout everyday trying to keep the V-build physique. My workout is simple just 20 mins a day but it's compound lifts and I mix in running when I can eg. a 5K. I'm not sure if it's genetics or just that I started body building almost 10 yrs ago but it's not hard for me to look jacked.

2024 ----------

As of May 2024, still a box mover

Jun 2024 update, man's livin but still he is a box spatial displacer

Aug 2024 still poor

Dec 2024 accepted new job back in six figs baby! Net worth -$93K.

2023 ----------

Quit his six-fig SWE I job early 2023

May be unrecoverable, back to the trenches (labor job)

About to be stacking six figs of boxes in a warehouse

3 months later... saved! no boxes stacked, sold most possessions

SWE III though makes 30% less lol, no longer in the six fig club, net worth -$80K

Now pursuing entrepreneurial endeavors

Nah it turns out, tired af after 9 hrs for work in office/commute, still working on it

Started looking to hop jobs back into six figs again (Oct 2023)

Late 2023 fired from job, for being too vocal about process complaints

Will he be homeless? Stay tuned

I think I'm jaded, I'm kind of looking forward to a labor job/write code for fun. It would be ideal to get another dev job but I doubt it. That's two strikes this year on paper.

Prophecy has been fulfilled, I am now a box stacker as of Dec 2023, no ragrets.","created_time":1474036567,"created":"8 years ago","id":"ge96","karma":1392}